It turns out law school was exactly what I was always supposed to be doing at the age of 22. I knew at the age of 6, and I always kept finding my way back to it. I’m so glad I did. There is no better feeling than knowing that you made the right decision for yourself, even when a vast majority of the people around you were advising you against it. I have felt contentment like this only a couple of times in my life: the first was when I sent in my deposit to Clemson the day after receiving my acceptance letter and the second was when Senator Graham won the Primary election. Those were the two moments in my adult life that I remember being perfectly okay with life at that moment and not wanting to change a single thing.
I think to take a leap of faith and go through more school when you have people waiving flags at you to go in the other direction, takes courage that most people don’t even know they have. I think for the months leading up to this, I just figured I was doing this because I am stubborn and set in my ways. It turns out, God’s will was a lot stronger than the words of man surrounding me. Even when I wasn’t sure what my brain wanted, my heart and my gut knew what I was supposed to do. I should probably listen to them in other aspects of my life.
Law school is a lot of work, and it’s true that I don’t get to go to bars every night or see my friends from high school and college as much as I would like. If I had a full time job I wouldn’t get to either though. Law school is just that, a full time job. Do you know what would suck more than the three years of school I’m going through to get where I want to be though? Never getting there at all. I might have to spend hours reading, and I may not have a full social calendar right now, but i’ll take this any day over never reaching the goals I’ve set for myself.
“There are too many lawyers now. You can do what you want without a law degree.” If I had $5 for every time someone has said this to me, I wouldn’t have to worry about paying my tuition. There are a lot of doctors too, but you don’t see people trying to dissuade others from entering this profession. Doctors eventually retire. SO DO LAWYERS. I guess we should just not replace them once they all retire? I like the law, and I like learning about the law. I think lawmakers need to be educated on the law as well. Do I think this means that they need law degrees? No, absolutely not. There is also no such thing as knowing too much about a subject.
I’m doing what I love right now- just like I have always done. It makes my heart happy. It makes me feel like I’m being challenged, and nothing feels better than answering a question right when you’re called on.
I don’t think it’s a crazy statement to make that my generation has forgotten how to listen to themselves. There are so many distractions in the world now, and we let ourselves get bogged down in the opinions of others. At the end of the day, if you fall asleep knowing you’re where you’re supposed to be, who cares what anyone else thinks?
If you want to go sell knit scarves in Switzerland, then start knitting and book a flight. If you want to teach, then do it. Money was the motive for the last few generations leading up to ours. Let your motivation be the smile that crosses your face when you walk through the door of your apartment or house or hut or wherever you’re living at the moment. If you aren’t smiling at least once a day, do something else. There are enough unhappy people out there.
I don’t love law school all day, every day. I would have to be on really high dose anti-depressants for that to be accurate. Every single day though, I’m excited about something. Stop questioning other people’s choices, and start questioning if you’re happy with yours because at the end of the day you’re the only person living with it.
(Someone please remind me why I wrote this around the end of November/beginning of December!)